When I first drew this as a study, I had been reflecting on a lecture I had heard about Ganesha, the one who removes obstacles and the God of new beginnings. As one sometimes takes the bits and pieces of what’s in the refrigerator and makes soup, this was a reflection on the bits and pieces of a recent year, including having been mostly paralyzed, and having had cancer treatments. The center reflects the “dark night of the soul” from which I was recovering, while the gold is the healing process throughout and surrounding my life.
I feel like I’m riding the bullet train from month to month, and literally every time I look outside, the moon is full.
I drew this when my shoulders were mostly paralyzed and I could not move more than a few inches. As a result, the original was only a few inches high, rigid and filled with the tension and stress of my infirmity. The final, fabric version was transformed into a totem of my improving health after I recovered. Through this journey, I felt like I was reaching out to the spirit world to help me survive and release me from my paralysis.
After an evening spent with people who are very different from me and who have contrasting expectations of themselves – and of me – I created this piece in my exasperation and my desire for acceptance.
I finally am a sybarite: I want all of my senses turned on, tuned up, fed, and watered as often as possible. The various sections of the piece represent my different senses, lit up and happily responding to the universe into which I have been born. I am so happy I was born a synesthete!!!