Inspiration: Ben Neill, Theo Metz, and David Rothenberg. Live Performance. June 6, 2013. Kingston, NY. | Musical Genre: Experimental Ambient
This was created as a result of my being an audience member experiencing musical performances by these three composer/musicians. Ben and Theo teach in the Ramapo College of New Jersey music department and David teaches philosophy and music at NJIT.
Inspiration: Ben Neill. “Dream Phase.” 1996. Triptycal. Verve Records. | Length: 6:14 minutes; Musical Genre: Experimental Ambient
Although this piece is named after a specific Ben Neill composition, it is a general gestalt of my several experiences with his live performances. His self-designed “Mutantrumpet with its electro acoustic computer system generates bright red and golden horizontal wiggly layers that echo, punctuated by surprising vertical interstitial skittery boxes and circles of rhythm.
I drew this when my shoulders were mostly paralyzed and I could not move more than a few inches. As a result, the original was only a few inches high, rigid and filled with the tension and stress of my infirmity. The final, fabric version was transformed into a totem of my improving health after I recovered. Through this journey, I felt like I was reaching out to the spirit world to help me survive and release me from my paralysis.
After an evening spent with people who are very different from me and who have contrasting expectations of themselves – and of me – I created this piece in my exasperation and my desire for acceptance.